SONG OF THE DAY

I See Fire by Ed Sheeran

SONG OF THE DAY

 Fantasy in D Minor by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

Overburdening School Systems

Okay, so this is what I want to talk about today. What I don't get is the incredibly f***ed up school system. I'm not sure about other towns, but mine is like this. They give us insane amount of completely unnecessary work, and you know what else?

THEY MAKE SCIENCE FAIR MANDATORY.

Now, understand something. Science fair in this town is like a college football game in Texas. You don't build a volcano and win a stupid fricking ribbon. You have four lab reports that have to get turned in, and if you don't, you fail science, and then you have to spend tons of money on the project and get judged for it. They're considering making juniors do it now. 

Do you know what that means?

That means that we'll have to put up with science fair, exhibition (it's a project that you have to pass in order to GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL), AP classes, and then they want us to have at least (15 hours??) of community service, and a bucket load of extra curricular activities. And on top of all that?

They tell us to "be happy" and "have a positive attitude."

I hate to break it to you, but it doesn't exactly work that way. 

Fun Fact: the average stress level of a present day high school student is the same as a patient at a mental institution in the 1950's.

A White Dove does sing

From the top of a steeple

A high coo

SONG OF THE DAY

"Keep Holding On" by Avril Lavigne

Ranting Time

Okay, so you guys don't have to respond to this unless you feel the need to. This is basically where when I need to talk about something I rant to my computer. 

If you are reading this, let me give you some background. I have had anxiety and panic disorder since I was really young, and I recently relapsed last year. Lately, it's been driving me crazy. I have kind of this trapped feeling that I can't get rid of even though I keep running through all the things I tell myself.

What are you even worried ABOUT?
Don't think about yesterday or tomorrow, or tonight, just focus on right now.
There's nothing to be worried about.
You're going to be fine.

In past circumstances, telling myself things like this has worked, but not lately. I can't find a way to get rid of that feeling, or more, the thoughts I have. I've been thinking a lot about death?? It might be because of a death that happened recently, but I don't know. Sometimes I feel like maybe dying would be getting something over with, but then an hour later, I don't want to die, but then I won't feel good physically and suddenly I'm convinced I'm going to.

You know what really drives me crazy though?

Not knowing what happens after death.

I feel like if I knew, it would be so much easier just to ignore it until I got there. I'm not a particularly religious person. I don't know if I believe that if you follow a certain religion the right way you go live up in the sky with big fluffy clouds and golden pillars everywhere. 

Anyways, this is driving me crazy, but hopefully having written this will help. 

-RGS

This is my new favorite video on the internet. It's brilliant.